of 2nd naans and 4pm waffles

it has come. you are finally asking the question that i guessed you would one day ask.

inherent in the seed is the plant, and perhaps, inherent in the decision you made is this doubt. because much as we would like to believe in the positive adage of "live life to the fullest", our finite, self-seeking minds are ultimately incapable of responding responsibly to such an ethos. adopting such an attitude, we would take it to be a licence for self-satiation, enter all things with "carpe diem" in mind, and turn to different degrees of hedonism. there would be no restraint, only the pursuit of plenitude and an engulfing of all possible experiences.

and with no restraint there can be no true happiness.

i wish i could quote you matt 16:25. i wish i could make you see that in seeking happiness from extremes, you have made yourself unhappier. you are gorging and deriving flashes of thrills, but it is food that gnaws when it enters you. and you know it, but you can't bring yourself to say it. and i am held back by all sorts of things, but i wish i could say it straight to you, and pull you out of all this cotton-candy mess.

you are a kid who has eaten too many chocolate cakes.



"vomit it out. you'll feel better."